“I've made my plans. I know exactly where to turn.”
He still was bending down， inhaling deeply like a man about to plunge， naked， into the sea.
“You don't even seem to mind it！ How long will you be away?” she asked.
A week or ten days， he couldn't say. “Mind it?” Why should he? All those cities， plains， and mountains. 。 。 。 In freedom he was go??ing out to conquer them. In under an hour， he thought， he would have annexed Buenos Aires and tossed it aside！
He smiled at his thoughts. This town 。 。 。 it will soon be left behind. It's fine starting out at night. One opens out the gas， facing south， and ten seconds later swings the landscape roundabout， heading up north. The town looks like the bottom of the sea.
She thought of all a man must lay aside to conquer. “So you don't like your home?”
“I do like my home.”
But his wife knew that he was already on his way and even now his sturdy shoulders were pressing up against the sky.
She pointed to the sky. “A fine night. See， your road is paved with stars！”
He laughed. “Yes.”
She rested her hand on his shoulder and its moist warmth disquieted her; did some dan??ger threaten this young flesh of his?
“I know how strong you are， but — do take care！”
“Of course I'll take care.”
Then he began dressing. For the occasion he chose the coarsest， roughest fabrics， the heaviest of leather — a peasant's kit. The hea??vier he grew， the more she admired him. Her??self she buckled his belt， helped to pull his boots on.
“These boots pinch me！”
“Here are the others.”
“Bring a cord for my emergency-lamp.”
She looked at him， set to rights the last flaw in his armor; all fell into place.
“You look splendid.”
Then she noticed that he was carefully brushing his hair.
“For the benefit of the stars?” she ques??tioned.
“I don't want to feel old.”
“I'm jealous.”
He laughed again and kissed her， pressing her to his heavy garments. Then he lifted her from the ground between his outstretched arms like a little girl， and laughing still， de??posited her on the bed.
“Go to sleep！”
He shut the door behind him and passing amongst the indistinguishable folk of night， took the first step toward his conquests.
She remained， sadly looking at these flowers and books， little friendly things which meant for him no more than the bottom of the sea.
chapter eleven
Rivière Greeted Him.
Rivière greeted him.
“That's a nice trick you played on me， your last trip！ You turned back though the weather reports were good. You could have pushed through all right. Get the wind up?”
Surprised， the pilot found no answer. He slowly rubbed his hands one on the other. Then， raising his head， he looked Rivière in the eyes.
“Yes，” he answered.
Deep in himself Rivière felt sorry for this brave fellow who had been afraid. The pilot tried to explain.
“I couldn't see a thing. No doubt， further on 。 。 。 perhaps 。 。 。 the radio said. 。 。 。 But my lamp was getting weak and I couldn't see my hands. I tried turning on my flying-light so as to spot a wing anyhow， but I saw nothing. It was like being at the bottom of a huge pit， and no getting out of it. Then my engine started a rattle.”
“No.”
“No?”
“No， we had a look at it. In perfect order. But a man always thinks the engine's rattling when he gets the wind up.”
“And who wouldn't? The mountains were above me. When I tried to climb I got caught in heavy squalls When one can't see a damned thing， squalls， you know. 。 。 。 In??stead of climbing I lost three hundred feet or more. I couldn't even see the gyroscope or the manometers. It struck me that the engine was running badly and heating up， and the oil-pressure was going down. And it was dark as a plague of Egypt. Damned glad I was to see the lights of a town again.”
“You've too much imagination. That's what it is.”
The pilot left him.
Rivière sank back into the arm-chair and ran his fingers through his grizzled hair.
The pluckiest of my men， he thought. It was a fine thing he did that night， but I've stopped him from being afraid.
He felt a mood of weakness coming over him again.
To make oneself beloved one need only show pity. I show little pity， or I hide it. Sure enough it would be fine to create friendships and human kindness around me. A doctor can enjoy that in the course of his profession. But I'm the servant of events and， to make others serve them too， I've got to temper my men like steel. That dark necessity is with me every night when I read over the flight reports. If I am slack and let events take charge， trusting to routine， always mysteri??ously something seems to happen. It is as if my will alone forbade the plane in flight from breaking or the storm to hold the mail up. My power sometimes amazes me.
His thoughts flowed on.
Simple enough， perhaps. Like a gardener's endless labor on his lawn; the mere pressure of his hand drives back into the soil the virgin forest which the earth will engender time and time again.
His thoughts turned to the pilot.
I am saving him from fear. I was not at??tacking him but， across him， that stubborn inertia which paralyzes men who face the un??known. If I listen and sympathize， if I take his adventure seriously， he will fancy he is returning from a land of mystery， and mystery alone is at the root of fear. We must do away with mystery. Men who have gone down into the pit of darkness must come up and say — there's nothing in it！ This man must enter the inmost heart of night， that clotted dark??ness， without even his little miner's davy， whose light， falling only on a hand or wing， suffices to push the unknown a shoulder's breadth away.
Yet， a silent communion， deep within them， united Rivière and his pilots in the battle. All were like shipmates， sharing a com??mon will to victory.
Rivière remembered other battles he had joined to conquer night. In official circles darkness was dreaded as a desert unexplored. The idea of launching a craft at a hundred and fifty miles an hour against the storm and mists and all the solid obstacles night veils in darkness might suit the military arm; you leave on a fine night， drop bombs and return to your starting-point. But regular night-serv??ices were doomed to fail. “It's a matter of life and death，” said Rivière， “for the lead we gain by day on ships and railways is lost each night.”
Disgusted， he had heard them prate of balance-sheets， insurance and， above all， pub??lic opinion. “Public opinion！” he exclaimed. “The public does as it's told！” But it was all waste of time， he was saying to himself.
There's something far above all that. A living thing forces its way through， makes its own laws to live by and nothing can resist it. Rivière had no notion when or how commercial aviation would tackle the problem of night-flying but its inevitable solution must be pre??pared for.
Those green table-cloths over which he had leaned， his chin propped on his arm， well he remembered them！ And his feeling of power as he heard the others‘ quibbles！ Futile these had seemed， doomed from the outset by the force of life. He felt the weight of energy that gathered in him. And I shall win， thought Rivière， for the weight of argument is on my side. That is the natural trend of things. They urged him to propose a utopian scheme， de??void of every risk. ”Experience will guide us to the rules，” he said. “You cannot make rules precede practical experience.”
After a hard year's struggle， Rivière got his way. “His faith saw him through，” said some， but others： “No， his tenacity. Why， the fel??low's as obstinate as a bear！” But Rivière put his success down to the fact that he had lent his weight to the better cause.
Safety first was the obsession of those early days. Planes were to leave only an hour before dawn， to land only an hour after sunset. When Rivière felt surer of his ground， then and only then did he venture to send his planes into the depth of night. And now， with few to back him， disowned by nearly all， he plowed a lonely furrow.
Rivière rang up to learn the latest messages from the planes in flight.
chapter twelve
Now The Patagonia Mail Was Entering The Storm —
Now the Patagonia mail was entering the storm and Fabien abandoned all idea of cir??cumventing it; it was too widespread for that， he reckoned， for the vista of lightning-flashes led far inland， exposing battlement on battle??ment of clouds. He decided to try passing be??low it， ready to beat a retreat if things took a bad turn.
He read his altitude， five thousand five hundred feet， and pressed the controls with his palms to bring it down. The engine started thudding violently， setting all the plane aquiver. Fabien corrected the gliding angle approximately， verifying on the map the height of the hills， some sixteen hundred feet. To keep a safety margin he determined to fly at a trifle above two thousand， staking his altitude as a gambler risks his fortune.
An eddy dragged him down， making the plane tremble still more harshly and he felt the threat of unseen avalanches that toppled all about him. He dreamt an instant of retreat and its guerdon of a hundred thousand stars， but did not shift his course by one degree.
Fabien weighed his chances; probably this was just a local storm， as Trelew， the next halt， was signaling a sky only three-quarters overcast. A bare twenty minutes more of solid murk and he would be through with it. Nevertheless the pilot felt uneasy. Leaning to his left， to windward， he sought to catch those vague gleams which， even in darkest night， flit here and there. But even those vagrant gleams were gone; at most there lingered patches in the mass of shadow where the night seemed less opaque， or was it only that his eyes were growing strained?
The wireless operator handed him a slip of paper.
“Where are we?”
Fabien would have given much to know. “Can't say exactly，” he answered. “We are flying by compass across a storm.”
He leaned down again. The flame from the exhaust was getting on his nerves. There it was， clinging to the motor like a spray of fire-flowers， so pale it seemed that moonlight would have quelled it， but， in this nothing??ness， engulfing all the visible world. He watched it streaming stiffly out into the wind， like a torch-flame.
Every thirty seconds Fabien bent down into the cockpit to check the gyroscope and compass. He dared not light the dim red lamps which would have dazzled his eyes for some moments， but the luminous dial-hands were ceaselessly emitting their pale and starry radiance. And in all those needles and printed figures the pilot found an illusive reassurance， as in the cabin of a ship swept by the waves. For， like a very sea of strange fatality， the night was rolling up against him with all its rocks and reefs and wreckage.
“Where are we?” the operator asked again.
Fabien drew himself up and， leaning to the left， resumed his tremendous vigil. He had no notion left how many hours more and what efforts would be needed to deliver him from fettering darkness. Would he ever come clear， he wondered， for he was staking his life on this little slip of dirty crumpled paper， which he unfolded and re-read a thousand times to nurse his hopes： Trelew. Sky three-quarters overcast. Westerly breeze. If there still re??mained a clear patch over Trelew， he would presently glimpse its lights across a cloud-rift. Unless. 。 。 。
That promise of a faint gleam far ahead beckoned him on; but， to make sure， he scribbled a message to the radio operator. “Don't know if I can get through. Ask if the weather's holding out behind.”
The answer appalled him.
“Commodoro reports： Impossible return here. Storm.”
He was beginning to measure this unfore??seen offensive， launched from the Cordillera toward the sea. Before he could make them the storm would have burst upon the cities.
“Get the San Antonio weather report.”
“San Antonio reports： West wind rising. Storm in the west. Sky three-quarters over??cast. San Antonio picking up badly on ac??count of interferences. I'm having trouble too. I shall have to pull up the aerial on ac??count of the lightning. Will you turn back? What are your plans?”
“Stow your damned questions！ Get Bahia Blanca！”
“Bahia Blanca reports： Violent westerly gale over Bahia Blanca expected in less than twenty minutes.”
“Ask Trelew.”
“Trelew reports： Westerly gale; a hundred feet per second; rain squalls.”
“Inform Buenos Aires： We are cut off on all sides; storm developing over a depth of eight hundred miles; no visibility. What shall we do?”
A shoreless night， the pilot thought， lead??ing to no anchorage （for every port was un??attainable， it seemed）， nor toward dawn. In an hour and twenty minutes the fuel would run out. Sooner or later he must blindly founder in the sea of darkness. Ah， if only he could have won through to daylight！
Fabien pictured the dawn as a beach of golden sand where a man might get a foot??hold after this hard night. Beneath him the plains， like friendly shores， would spread their safety. The quiet land would bear its sleeping farms and flocks and hills. And all the flotsam swirling in the shadows would lose its menace. If it were possible， how gladly he would swim toward the strand of daylight！ But， well he knew， he was surrounded; for better or for worse the end would come with??in this murk of darkness. 。 。 。 Sometimes， indeed， when daybreak came， it seemed like convalescence after illness.
What use to turn his eyes toward the east， home of the sun? Between them lay a gulf of night so deep that he could never clamber up again.
chapter thirteen
The Asuncion Mail Is Making Good Headway —
“The Asuncion mail is making good head??way; it should be in at about two. The Pata??gonia mail， however， seems to be in difficul??ties and we expect it to be much overdue.”
“Very good， Monsieur Rivière.”
“Quite possibly we won't make the Europe mail wait for it; as soon as Asuncion's in， come for instructions， please. Hold yourself in readiness.”
Rivière read again the weather reports from the northern sectors. “Clear sky; full moon; no wind.” The mountains of Brazil were standing stark and clear against the moonlit sky， the tangled tresses of their jet-black forests falling sheer into a silver tracery of sea. Upon those forests the moonbeams played and played in vain， tingeing their blackness with no light. Black， too， as drifting wreckage， the islands flecked the sea. But all the outward air-route was flooded by that ex??haustless fountain of moonlight.
If Rivière now gave orders for the start， the crew of the Europe mail would enter a stable world， softly illuminated all night long. A land which held no threat for the just bal??ance of light and shade， unruffled by the least caress of those cool winds which， when they freshen， can ruin a whole sky in an hour or two.
Facing this wide radiance， like a prospector eyeing a forbidden gold-field， Rivière hesi??tated. What was happening in the south put Rivière， sole protagonist of night flights， in the wrong. His opponents would make such moral capital out of a disaster in Patagonia that all Rivière's faith would henceforth be unavailing. Not that his faith wavered; if， through a fissure in his work， a tragedy had entered in， well， the tragedy might prove the fissure—but it proved nothing else. Perhaps， he thought， it would be well to have look-out posts in the west. That must be seen to. “After all，” he said to himself， “my previous argu??ments hold good as ever and the possibilities of accident are reduced by one， the one to??night has illustrated.” The strong are strengthened by reverses; the trouble is that the true meaning of events scores next to nothing in the match we play with men. Appearances decide our gains or losses and the points are trumpery. And a mere semblance of defeat may hopelessly checkmate us.
He summoned an employee. “Still no radio from Bahia Blanca?”
“No.”
“Ring up the station on the phone.”
Five minutes later he made further in??quiries. “Why don't you pass on the mes??sages?”
“We can't hear the mail.”
“He's not sending anything?”
“Can't say. Too many storms. Even if he was sending we shouldn't pick it up.”
“Can you get Trelew?”
“We can't hear Trelew.”
“Telephone.”
“We've tried. The line's broken.”
“How's the weather your end?”
“Threatening. Very sultry. Lightning in the west and south.”
“Wind?”
“Moderate so far. But in ten minutes the storm will break; the lightning's coming up fast.”
Silence.
“Hullo， Bahia Blanca！ You hear me? Good. Call me again in ten minutes.”
Rivière looked through the telegrams from the southern stations. All alike reported： No message from the plane. Some had ceased by now to answer Buenos Aires and the patch of silent areas was spreading on the map as the cyclone swept upon the little towns and one by one， behind closed doors， each house along the lightless streets grew isolated from the outer world， lonely as a ship on a dark sea. And only dawn would rescue them.
Rivière poring on the map， still hoped against hope to discover a haven of clear sky， for he had telegraphed to the police at more than thirty up-country police-stations and their replies were coming in. And the radio-posts over twelve hundred miles of country had orders to advise Buenos Aires within thirty seconds if any message from the plane was picked up， so that Fabien might learn at once whither to fly for refuge.
The employees had been warned to attend at 1 A. M. and were now at their posts. Some??how， mysteriously， a rumor was gaining ground that perhaps the night flights would be suspended in the future and the Europe mail would leave by day. They spoke in whispers of Fabien， the cyclone and， above all， of Rivière whom they pictured near at hand and point by point capitulating to this rebuff the elements had dealt.
Their chatter ceased abruptly; Rivière was standing at his door， his overcoat tight-buttoned across his chest， his hat well down upon his eyes， like the incessant traveler he always seemed. Calmly he approached the head clerk.
“It's one ten. Are the papers for the Eu??rope mail in order?”
“I — I thought —”
“Your business is to carry out orders， not to think.”
Slowly turning away， he moved toward an open window， his hands clasped behind his back. A clerk came up to him.
“We have very few replies， sir. We hear that a great many telegraph lines in the in??terior have been destroyed.”
“Right！”
Unmoving， Rivière stared out into the night.
Thus each new message boded new peril for the mail. Each town， when a reply could be sent through before the lines were broken， announced the cyclone on its way， like an in??vading horde. “It's coming up from the Cor??dillera， sweeping everything before it， toward the sea.”
To Rivière the stars seemed over-bright， the air too moist. Strange night indeed！ It was rotting away in patches， like the substance of a shining fruit. The stars， in all their host， looked down on Buenos Aires — an oasis， and not to last. A haven out of Fabien's range， in any case. A night of menace， touched and tainted by an evil wind. A difficult night to conquer.
Somewhere in its depths an airplane was in peril; here， on the margin， they were fight??ing to rescue it， in vain.
chapter fourteen
Fabien's Wife Telephoned.
Fabien's wife telephoned.
Each night she calculated the progress of the homing Patagonia mail. “He's leaving Trelew now，” she murmured. Then went to sleep again. Presently： “He's getting near San Antonio， he has its lights in view.” Then she got out of bed， drew back the curtains and summed up the sky. “All those clouds will worry him.” Sometimes the moon was wan??dering like a shepherd and the young wife heartened by the faithful moon and stars， the thousand presences that watched her hus??band. Toward one o'clock she felt him near her. “Not far to go， Buenos Aires is in sight.” Then she got up again， prepared a meal for him， a nice steaming cup of coffee. “It's so cold up there！” She always welcomed him as if he had just descended from a snow-peak. “You must be cold！” “Not a bit.” “Well， warm yourself anyhow！” She had everything ready at a quarter past one. Then she telephoned. Tonight she asked the usual ques??tion.
“Has Fabien landed?”
The clerk at the other end grew flustered. “Who's speaking?”
“Simone Fabien.”
“Ah！ A moment， please. 。 。 。”
Afraid to answer， he passed the receiver to the head clerk.
“Who's that?”
“Simone Fabien.”
“Yes. What can I do for you?”
“Has my husband arrived?”
After a silence which must have baffled her， there came a monosyllable. “No.”
“Is he delayed?”
“Yes.”
Another silence. “Yes， he is delayed.”
“Ah！”
The cry of a wounded creature. A little delay， that's nothing much， but when it lasts， when it lasts. 。 。 。
“Yes. And when — when is he expected in?”
“When is he expected? We 。 。 。 we don't know exactly 。 。 。”
A solid wall in front of her， a wall of silence， which only gave her back the echo of her questions.
“Do please tell me， where is he now?”
“Where is he? Wait. 。 。 。”
This suspense was like a torture. Something was happening there， behind that wall.
At last， a voice！ “He left Commodoro at seven thirty this evening.”
“Yes? And then?”
“Then — delayed， seriously delayed by stormy weather.”
“Ah！ A storm！”
The injustice of it， the sly cruelty of that moon up there， that lazing moon of Buenos Aires！ Suddenly she remembered that it took barely two hours to fly from Commodoro to Trelew.
“He's been six hours on the way to Tre??lew！ But surely you've had messages from him. What does he say?”
“What does he say? Well， you see， with weather like that 。 。 。 it's only natural 。 。 。 we can't hear him.”
“Weather like — ？”
“You may rest assured， madame， the mo??ment we get news of him， we will ring you up.”
“Ah！ You've no news.”
“Good-night， madame.”
“No！ No！ I want to talk to the director.” “I'm sorry， he's very busy just now; he has a meeting on — ”
“I can't help that. That doesn't matter. I insist on speaking to him.”
The head clerk mopped his forehead. “A moment， please.”
He opened Rivière's door.
“Madame Fabien wants to speak to you， sir.”
“Here，” thought Rivière， “is what I was dreading.” The emotional elements of the drama were coming into action. His first im??pulse was to thrust them aside; mothers and women are not allowed in an operating theater. And all emotion is bidden to hold its peace on a ship in peril; it does not help to save the crew. Nevertheless he yielded.
“Switch on to my phone.”
No sooner did he hear that far off， qua??vering voice， than he knew his inability to answer it. It would be futile for both alike， worse than futile， to meet each other.
“Do not be alarmed， madame， I beg you. In our calling it so often happens that a long while passes without news.”
He had reached a point where not the problem of a small personal grief but the very will to act was in itself at issue. Not so much Fabien's wife as another theory of life confronted Rivière now. Hearing that timid voice， he could but pity its infinite distress—and know it for an enemy！ For action and in??dividual happiness have no truck with each other; they are eternally at war. This woman， too， was championing a self-coherent world with its own rights and duties， that world where a lamp shines at nightfall on the table， flesh calls to mated flesh， a homely world of love and hopes and memories. She stood up for her happiness and she was right. And Rivière， too， was right， yet he found no words to set against this woman's truth. He was discovering the truth within him， his own inhuman and unutterable truth， by an humble light， the lamplight of a little home！